Well back to work

I will start a new job tomorrow doing what I have done before. I will now work for a company called Backyard's Inc. Its funny because they were one of Backyard Adventures competitors. I am just excited to start making some money. Work here I come

just a little snow boarding

I got to go snow boarding with my nephew Tyler it was a blast. Thanks tyty

Valentines 2010

This year for valentines day I wanted to try and fill my time. I am currently trying to find a full time job. I have not had much luck with that yet. I was able to get a 4 day job working in a flower shop for Valentines day weekend. It was so much fun. I got to proses flower and make arrangements for wrapped flowers. I had no idea how much work goes into flowers. It was a lot of work but I loved it. I even did a few deliveries on Friday that was a lot of fun to. When Sat came I was pooped and I had seen so many beautiful flowers I would have loved to have my own flowers to have for the weekend. When I came home from the flower shop I was greeted with a beautiful bouquet that Ryan picked out and arranged all by himself. Along with a beautiful pink purse that I wanted. So this Valentines was a blast. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have a husband like Ryan. I love you Ryan thanks for making me feel special all of the time. HOLD YOU


These are the flowers that RYAN got me



This is my cute purse


arrangements waiting to go out




some of the arrangements that I delivered

inside the flower shop

my very full car with flowers



I think I delivered over 500 roses this weekend

Hits home for me

Fear and pain ( what is to come ?)

Today I write because I don't know what else to do. I guess I also don't want to forget how I feel. Monday I found out that I was not pregnant from a 3rd try of IN-VETRO, and it being my 6th loss. It is weird because I thought that Ryan and I had been through enough. I guess I was wrong. I know that we will get through this. But I know it will take time, asking WHY about 1000 more times, tears, pain, and a list of many more things. I am not sure what is to come for Ryan and I or when. The thing that I do know is. I love my family (Ryan and Aurora )we have each other. Along with our extended families. I personaly know how blessed I am to be a daughter, sister, wife, aunt, and a friend. Parts of me feel like life is over. I know that it is not. I can win in the end. Gall life is weird and hard but I guess the weird or hard times is what allows us to be happy all of the other times in life. Looking for an answer is what I am waiting for right now. When I get it I don't know. But some day it will come. I can't thank everyone enough for all of the love and support that we have been given over the past few years. I love all of you Thanks

My Brother inlaw

So last year when I had a hard time my sister hart attacked my house and there were a bunch of quotes on them. One of them really stood out and I have been inspired from it so I thought I should share it when all of you out there. This was written by Jeff Gregerson.


Sometimes life is tougher then a pile of bricks my only advice is this...... Turn to our Elder Brother because as a Master Craftsman he can grind the toughest bricks into the softest ,silkiest sand that lay on the warm beaches of our near horizon.
Thanks Jeff I love you and thanks for such comforting words.

New family pics (thanks April!)

Well it was that time again. I did not get cards out but I still got pics done. I want to say a special thank you to April my good friend from high school. The pics turned out great. Happy new year every one.